Totally drained out...

Aargh!!! Whats the matter with me!!! Sometimes I just feel so stupid!!! Yea I know I'm not perfect but I sometimes wish others didn't think they were!!! I'm so tired of pretending to be someone I'm not!!! Sometimes life just seems so unfair... I remember the time I wished that the floor would just open up and swallow me!!! I know many people hate me and say I'm mean. But you know what? I cant deny it. But I just wish they would understand what kind of emotional roller coaster I'm going through before they judge me. I know its not easy to understand but hey, no harm trying. Anyway many people don't know it but actually I feel that I am very alone in this world. You know what? Sometimes I wish that I wasn't born. But I realized that its no use wishing when it wont come true. I guess life will just be complicated for me. But before I sign off, I would just like to say a special thanks to the people that tried to understand what I was going through. Thanks mum, dad, sis and GOD!!!

Prefects Installation!!!

Hello all!!! Well, prefects installation was yesterday... It was fun!!! Well sort of... The performances were great!!! But I have to say, the form 2 performance was the uttermost worst performance!!! The new prefects look great in blue!!! They look much better than before!!!Anyway, here are some pictures and a video!!!

(Group photo!!!)

(The girls!!!)




(Form 1 performance)
(practicing)

Blahhh...

Blahhh is so how im feeling right now... Sheesh... Having a super bad cough and sore throat right now... I so can't believe that installation day is tomorrow!!! And the worst part is that I have to sing for a performance and im currently having that super bad cough and sore throat!!! AARGH!!! What am I going to do!!! Sigh... I cant wait to see all the new prefects in uniform!!!
Its gonna be so cool!!! Lol...

Anyway, on Saturday the prefects (well not all) got together to clean the room. We painted it nicely. Im not meaning to be 'berat sebelah' or anything but the afternoon session prefects did almost everything. And the best part about all this is, after everything was done, I found out that the afternoon session prefects were banned from using the prefect room. I know what your thinking, pfft... Well thats the way it is I guess... I don't know why but I feel that the afternoon session prefects are always unappreciated... Oh well... Im feeling so bored!!! I just cant believe I haven't finished my geo folio!!! Sigh... I just hope my throat gets better before the performance tomorrow... Anyway, I guess thats all there is for today!!!

Recap!!!

Boy, today was one hectic day... Firstly before I say how my day went I would like to make a correction to something... Well remember when I wrote about the form 1 prefects? Well I agree that I was a little to harsh with my words... Well basically they are good people, not great but good. They just kinda get on my nerves sometimes or most of the time. Lol. Well this is kinda like a public apology... Now to continue telling you about my day...

Well it started out like this, we went to school early in the morning. We stayed back. Firstly we went to have lunch at a nearby shop. And we meaning me, Jean Ann, Safura, Christy and Ashley... After ordering our lunch Jean Ann read us an sms that she told us about earlier. And yes it was private... Anyway, after all that we went back to school while Jean Ann went home. By the time Jean Ann came back to school, most of the students were there. Then we kinda tried to foreplay our own drama. And obviously it didn't work as planned... So that was pretty much a let down... Then we had our practice for our prefect installation... I was kinda giving some people singing lessons. I guess thats kinda it... Well thats it... Cya.

Feeling down and blue...

My life has been a disaster from the start!!! Sigh... Sorry for the depressing start cause its exactly how I'm feeling right now... The other day, me and my friends were playing truth or dare... And of course as you all know from Wei Beng's blog I had to tell my deepest darkest secret, I was a little heavy hearted and didn't really want to say it... But well, I did... It took a lot of courage for me to say it... I wasn't exactly happy though... Actually the reason why I couldn't say it is not because I was shy or anything like that... Well basically, my deepest darkest secret was that I liked (I put the d in bold so that you know I so don't like him anymore) some guy that they all knew... He is a nice guy and all but he is the guy that gave me this mentality that all guys are idiots and has made me never like a guy ever again cause it sucks liking a guy or at least a guy between the ages of 12-17... Nowadays I feel very uncomfortable when he's near me and I feel super angry but hey, I have to leave the past behind... Now I feel better not liking a guy... It makes me realize that I actually can use my brain and that I can think more!!! Lol... (Oh and just for your info, please never mention it to me that I liked him cause I would love to forget it!!! This goes especially to T.W.B and S.B.S!!!)

Anyway, I'm also mad because of my 'fellow' prefects. But not those in my batch. I mean the new ones. The form 1's. Well basically, most of them have kinda made my life a living hell!!! Well that's life for me... I want to thank some of my friends for helping though... It means a lot to me... Like today, I was pretty mad firstly, so I got them all together for a briefing... But it got interrupted so many times I had to cancel it half way. But they kinda got my point. (I think?) Just about 2 hours later, they forgot absolutely EVERYTHING I said. They even broke some things for goodness sakes!!! It was horrendous!!! And worst of all there was no cooperation or communication!!! Sigh... I can't believe these 'PREFECTS' are going to take over the afternoon session... It just seems so unbelievable... But i guess I still have a little faith in them... I just hope they will change... I notice that its because of them I have all this stress... I also notice that nowadays I feel super tired and feel as if my heartbeat is going to just stop and that I'm going to suddenly just lose my breath!!! And obviously the teachers don't really make it easier for me... Well, I guess that's it for now. Bye.

Take A Bow by Rihanna

Hey guys! Been kinda tired lately so that's why i haven't updated. Anyway, I'm now loving this song called take a bow and sung by Rihanna. Here are the lyrics, Hope you like them!!!

[Intro]

Ohh, how about a round of applause,

Yeah, standin' ovation,

Ooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah.

[Verse 1]

You look so dumb right now,

Standin' outside my house,

Tryin' to apologize,

You’re so ugly when you cry,

Please, just cut it out.

[Chorus]

Don’t tell me you’re sorry 'cause you’re not,

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin',

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin',

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin',

But it’s over now (but it's over now),

Go on and take a bow, ohh ohh.

[Verse 2]

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),

You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),

Talkin’ 'bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,

This just looks like the re-run,

Please, what else is on.

[Chorus]

And don’t tell me you’re sorry 'cause you’re not (mmm),

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin',

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin',

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin',

But it’s over now (but it's over now),

Go on and take a bow, ohh.

[Bridge]

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),

For makin' me believe that you could be faithful to me,

Let's hear your speech out,

How about a round of applause,

A standin' ovation.

[Chorus]

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin',

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin',

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin',

But it’s over now (but it's over now),

Go on and take a bow.

But it's over now.

Donations and sales!!!

Attention everyone!!! Remember when i wrote about my friend having financial needs and that we may have a donation or sale to help him? Well the time has arrived. On Friday which is on the 4th of July, we are having a sale of edible goods. Me and my friends will be running a little stall or something like that. Please come and support our donation/sale called save a friend donation!!!

Venue : SMK USJ 4

Time : 2.30 pm - 6.30 pm

THANK YOU!!!